Folks, in exactly one week I will be done with college classes.
I don’t know how to describe what happens when I think about it. I think I simultaneously try to think about the big picture, four years of things that have happened and the individual details, events, places, and people that have made up those four years. It’s like scalar overload. Too much to handle.
Inevitably I feel sad when I think about college being over. I know I have a lot to look forward to, but it’s hard not to feel sad when you are constantly faced with the things and people that you will be missing a lot in a few months.
I’ve been compiling photos so that I can make a scrapbook of college, even though initially I didn’t think I would. But looking through all the photos of the last four years made me realize that it’s been a hell of a ride. Somehow along the way college turned out to be better than I could have imagined it to be.
Today, I’ve decided that I’m going to be happy these last couple of weeks. It’s okay to feel fleeting moments of sadness, but I want to be fully present. Soak it all in.
Last night I sat outside with my friends at 2:00 in the morning with my friends and a glass of red wine, talking about life and looking at the stars. Today I sat on the lawn with my friends chatting about school and soaking up the sunshine. Tonight I went to happy hour with friends before class and ran to class in the rain. I looked like I had climbed out of a pool when I got there, but I was smiling.
I think I’m off to a good start.